I don't like being in that place. I want to love my friends and share in their successes and celebrate their victories and be encouraging to their dreams. I want to be with them at the start and through it all and there at the finish line. What does it say about my character if I decided to check out in the middle of it all?
And just like that I find myself captive. I am a prisoner of my own insecurities, fears, and doubts. I acknowledge the power that they have and let them have power over me. I let myself stay a prisoner because sometimes I feel that is what I deserve.
But The Lord tells us something very different. He says, "Child, cast your burdens, worries, and fears on me. Lay them down at my feet. I laid my life down at the cross so you may have life, and live in freedom. This is my gift to you. It is something you can never earn - but something I will always give."
Why does something as simple as social media have the ability to impact my whole mood? Because comparison is nothing but evil. Sometimes I feel like that's all social media is- a place to show off your new hair, your kid, your boyfriend. I am guilty of doing a lot of comparing lately, which is probably what has led to me thinking this way.
At the end of the day, your life has meaning. Your life is intentional. You have a purpose. You are meant to be here. And that is something no social networking site will ever give to you.
I'll never understand why in my filth and shame, The Lord decided to save me. Actually, I do know why. Because his love for me is like the ocean - deep, wide, vast, great, and never ending.
And my dear friends, that is the love that has saved us all.
